My church has a band that consists of my family members; my aunts on guitar and drums, my mom on keyboard, and my uncle on bass. And they all sing. I used to be in the band (piano player) before coming out.
I haven’t gone to church in years, so i haven’t been in the band either. My uncle just calls me saying how much he misses me and wishes that i could play with them really soon. I didn’t really know what to say.
They say they’re not going to try and change me…but i still don’t feel comfortable going to a place that doesn’t accept me. Even if they’re not outwardly showing it, i know they can’t accept homosexuality, just tolerate it because i’m family. They just ignore that aspect about me.
I think they really do miss me though. They’re not just the church band…they’re family i seldom see because i purposely keep our contact to a minimum because i always feel awkward around them.
I don’t know if i’ll go back or not. I liked playing music with them, but i just can’t go back to church.